it's time to leave the past behind..
everything unpleasant that has happened..
it's time i move on to a new phase and get myself ready for what the universe has to offer..
i don't wanna do this alone..
walk with me..

this is what i did during ICP lecture today.. ahahaha..

before.. my creation.. taken on 02/10/2007..

Mr Q studying.. pics taken at woodlands library..
our stuff..

studied there yesterday and today.. at least could get down to abit of serious stuff.. but so drained out already.. lol..

lazeee to type.. ciaoz..

"You'll have good chances to make interesting friends or to live passionate amorous adventures. You're likely this time to meet with delays in your habitual money entries. Your will to succeed in your career will be very much favored; consolidate your achievements; don't commit yourself more than necessary, otherwise your daily life will no longer have anything pleasant. If you want to feel really in good shape, drive out of your mind all resentment, all idea of vengeance, all negative thought."

horoscope from facebook.. zhun until cannot zhun..

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

我们都忘了这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的有一天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后我们都不知道会不会有以后

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

我们都累了却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑怎么说怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人等对方先说找分开的理由

谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中看见了不同的天空
走的太远终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我要有两个相反的梦

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

i was here.. shopping with dear..

bought a necklace and a purple top from topshop.. & 2 watches..

after he left for his lessons.. i walked arnd more..

i had this for high tea.. with some macademia ice-blended coffee.. after taking multiple shots of the fountain..
(i stood under the scorching sun for the better angle.. ppl looked at me.. i felt like an idiot.. but also like a pro-photographer.. lol..)

and i thought to myself.. if he really left.. can i really stand on my own..?

(great! now some ppl think that i am being arrogant. i dunno if i'm too sensitive but i'm quite sure that comment is made for me.)

既然你还是要坚持，我无话可说。别人可以最后一分钟说不能去，你呢？至少我能肯定的是-她有她自己的优先权。说我固执也好， 野蛮也好， 都是因为关心你。
你不领情，那就算了吧。

although we meet up very often.. quality time spent between us might not be even once a week.. so why do u emphasise so much on meeting up with them? and on a saturday night.. just leave me alone..? why? just because i've got work.. it's my fault that i need to work the next day?

i dun feel safe to always let u go without me.. cos i know u cant hold your liquor.. u promise u wun drink.. but are u sure? can u resist the temptation? can u break free from peer pressure? i doubt so.. cos i know u always succumb to peer pressure..

wad if i say 'i feel uneasy'? u'll think that i'm using ur words to pick on u.. wad if i say 'if u treasure me more then dun go with them'? u'll still think i'm being difficult.. maybe i think too much.. i'm too protective of you.. but it all makes me think that my sacrifice in saving this r'ship is not worth it at all!

i struggled so much to give up a long-time friend.. and you? u dun care a shit abt making me worry.. u think i control u.. fine.. i'm a control freak.. i really feel helpless.. i dunno wad to do with u.. and i hope u're reading this..

i'm sorry for worrying abt u, sorry that i need to work the next day, sorry that i cant be there to make sure u're safe, sorry for making u think i'm controlling u, sorry for meeting a "lover", sorry that i have yet to find my own activities for sat night, sorry for feeling helpless, and sorry for being a control freak!

if u really want me to be the bad guy, then let wadever problems be my fault. if u really want to see me break down, then may all the misfortunes in the world befall on my heavy shoulders.

it just gets worse as the days pass.. so tied up inside.. so many yearnings yet no reciprocation..

i'm totally crushed now..
i cant eat nor slp..
my joints feel so weak..
every step i take i feel like i'm fainting..
cant seem to talk to anyone abt this..
so i'm here just finding things for my fingers to do..
and keep my mind occupied for a little moment..